| it's be a while...again |
[23 Dec 2006|11:56am] |
so idk how long it's been sinec i last left an entry on here. so ithoght that since i am confined to my couch(i'll explain) i'll leave an entry. so the last time i left one, idk, i'll start from a month ago. i just started experiencing pain in the backof my mouth, so i went to so oral surgeon guy and now i got my wisodm teeth out yesterday. i was painful, i was scared about the IV, becuz needles and i, we don't mix. so he put under laughin gas, tied a rubber band thing around my arm, sprayed on this stuff that made my arm feel really cold, and then he put in the needle. the nurse said she didn't have to ask me to count back from 10, she turned around and was out. I didn't get feeling back into me jaw until ike 8 hours later, and when i did, it hurt. so i found a new love for pain killers, lol. but i have now slept so much in one day. kyle said he would come see, yea that never happened and it kinda pisses me off. but i love danielle becuz she came rite over my house when she got off the bus. she also had everyone in our french class sign a card for me, and dropped off my present form ciera, who gave me the cutest earrings ever! and danielle said she came back at around 4ishm but i jus took pain killers so i was out, but she's comin over today, again! kyle, however isn't even comin over, in fact he's probably not even gonna see me on christams eve like he said he would according to his mom. so yea, rite now , i'm takin my friends, especially the one who has stuck with me since like 1st grade. so thanksgiving was good, went over my aunt and uncles, kicked my cousins' asses in some game. went to my memere and pepere's and had my three cousin walk on my back, which felt really good! now, it's almost christmas, I can't chew food for the next two weeks, i have to be on a soft food diet for the next two weeks :(. therefore, i look like a seagull when i eat becuz i have to eat it all full.
i finished wrapping all my christmas gifts, when my friend melissa talks to me in school and tells me she has my gift, in my head i was like, " ohhh crap! i forgot about melissa!" so lucky my sister has this really cute frame she gto for my grandma, but my dad is goin under the don't-worry-about-the-grandparents rule, so i am buying a frame off my sism and i found this good pic of melissa and i and out it in.
omg miles has a gf! she the cutest thing though, lol. i'll leave on that note, becuz i wanna get hw done while i am confined to this couch.
|
|
| HeLLLO! everybody! |
[26 Oct 2006|08:41am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 sharpen pencil, insert here |
] |
capstone sucks balls! but i am not going to mention wat else is on my mind about other pple becxuz dizzy jus learned the hard way! fu John p!but yes i am still dating kyle! yea it'll be 10 months on nov. 17th! i'm surprise how much this site changed in like however long its been since the last time i updated it!
|
|
| again i forget!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[14 Jun 2006|01:58pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
ehhh |
] |
i haven't updated this in almost two months! the remembering thing, not workin so well.....
kyle and i r goin on 5 months and gonna *ahem* "celebrate"(hope he doesn't see this)....
sittin in study w/ meg is pretty chill, listenin to the iPod and headbangin on 1, 2, 3, 4.....
I love tricia a lot alot!<meg
I <3 meg more than i would kyle, well that could be pushin it but i jus say the truth....
track is done! track is done! i went to states for long and did my thrid bst jump, there is something schools that r good, i mean not coventry where i actually do good.
but i am pissed beyond reason! next they r gonna to cut alll sports! i went the finicial meeting last nite to protest and so far they r get 2.4 million to give to schools to keep them but now they have to letthe state vote or something like that! i am so mad becuz my dad said iif they do he'll either (A) pay a lot of money to let me play for travelling teams. or (B) send me to scituate, which i hope is th last resort, cuz there r pple here i don't wanna leave behind, like kyle, meg, lealea, missy, miles, and so on....
|
|
| hey life, how r u? |
[27 Apr 2006|10:01am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 it's thrusday! |
] |
so i haven't updates this since january 11th? ok a lot has happened...kyle and i have starting goin bac out, and have been for like three months, and he is amazin....he's gone almost all my track meets for the remainder of indoor, and to one of my vball tournies, includiung the one this sunday in connecticut. he has gottin his hair, which used to be longer than mine and now is really short, i love it cuz he looks hott! i mean my coach, horlbogen has even asked me who the new bf was becuz it looked like i dumpped the ugly kid w/long blonde hair, then i told her the the ugly kid w/lomng blonde hair got a haircut and we're still goin out....land i am even more happy becuz he promised to go to sophomore semi next month and i went and got my dress which is wicked pretty, becuz i feel like ballerina in it!
upon request, i am forced to add megan cary in to my life story becuz she taked some major roles, like totally trying to deflect me from goin bac out and now all for it! i luv her, kyle is the other life i lead, megra is my number one though! and she and jon houle r goin out and have been for two months, i'm proud of her becuz for the entire year, she couldn't commit for more than like two weeks!
i'm in culinary, and proud of it cuz that class is bomb! i waitress, wash dishes, make yummy pastry stuff and bread and already i've decided that i will stick to it till next year, and weon't do it my senior year cuz otherwise i can't take french four, and i want to go to johnson and wales to be a chef, maybe minor in business and french. that pple in my class r pretty fun cuz i have katie and jeff in there.
i have met a lot pple on my vball team which is fun, cuz we've won two out of the three tournys we've had so far!
in track, i have dominated long jump, at my first meet and on of the hardest of the year, i got second palce for jumpin a 15'1" on my first try! and 16' is like NE's! so i have already be guaranteed to go to states!
|
|
| sore as ever!!! |
[11 Jan 2006|06:32pm] |
if any one who reads is a track and runnin freak like me, then u know wat it is like to start runnin again after a looong while and/or havin wicked hard workouts like three days in a row, especially rite before a big and not jus any meet, i mean the URI Invitational. it's so big that if i don't PR in every single of of my events(aka: now it's 45m, 4X1 lap, and 300m), horlbogen will kill me!but mostly i am also sore because yesterday, we had a 20 minute workout, which is the one where u wake the next mornin and it hurts to move so bad, u r pressured to cry. but still it's 6:30, ur sis jus hopped in the shower and u still have to get dressed and and get ur bags and be out the door in half an hour.
oh snap! i got off track! well we had a 20 minute workout (again, ouch!) and then rite after that, i had the spandex on and all ready, u bolt straight to Lincoln for an hour and a half of passin settin and hittin. yes i am talkin about vball, and no, not jus talkin about the order of wat ur supposed hit the ball in. i had pass and screwed up every time, set becuz my temporary coach thinks i'm "so amazin" when really i am deeply fantasizin about suicide, and hittin becuz i luv it so much! it felt so great to get uop on the net and pound it!
back to track becuz i forgot to say something. u kno in my last entry, me rippin about chelsea took my place in the 4X1? not any more! she hasn't been in school at all in the past two days and horlbogen is pissed about it! so i'm bac in!
|
|
| dane cook rocks my sox! |
[10 Jan 2006|08:19am] |
dude, dane cook is amazin! the best one that i like of his jokes is the car alarm! hhhheeeellllo! i'm a caaar! gasoline makes me run! back---seat! trunk---space! hhhheeeellllo! wannna gooo for a ride?! seat belts! [something] knobs! OIL IS MY BLOOD! it's like amazin, if u haven't listened to any pf it yet, u live under a rock!
ok, i had my fun this mornin, now i am gonna complain like i usually do to get it all off my chest for the rest of the day....
in track, my coach pulled me out of 4X1 team and put in chelsea! i can't believe it cuz i worked so friggin hard and she does average to a varsity runner in one meet and i'm out? i am fuckin pissed, i was even taken out of the 300! and cvhelsea took my place in that too!
|
|
| i hate freshman! |
[19 Dec 2005|10:14am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bored man! |
] |
well, i can't jim curtin, as he spins in circles on his ass on top of the desk in front of me as i type on the computer in study.
matt valerio is an amazin kid! dude, he can actually hold a conversation w/ me the entire study period, about anything. zac doesn't really talk, when he does, he's a great kid, too bad he's not into havin a g/f rite about rite and caitlin lied. don't kno y i even trust her to hook me up w/someone....i think that i do a lot better on my own.
i wish i could go to winter ball if someone would ask! ughh! i miss gettin dressed up in a really beautiful dress and jus go dancin!
|
|
| *cough*, ugggggghh...... |
[05 Dec 2005|07:51am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bed {just dreamin} |
] |
i am so sick rite now, but still happy cuz there mite be like 6 inches of snow tomorrow, so i can sleeeeeeeep!
i just had vball tryouts for the Blast team, i feel like i did okay, except most of the gurls tryin out r outside hitters, like me and i couldn't hit the only time i did, so i mite be bashed to back row. then the boys' tryouts came in and i watched up till the point steph crist came over and i was lyin on the bleacher, so she smacked me wicked hard in the ass. so hard, half the guys turned around so i bolted to the other side of the gym. embarassin.....but i saw a lot of my guy friends from NK camp, like JOEY!!! and mike, and those who i wasn't very close with, like josh baker and danny, but they're still pretty cool.
so i had track on friday too, and my first meet is on thursday! horlbogen, my coach, the one who pressures me into everything that is runnin, includin she's tryin to get me to stop playin vball, not gonna happen. but she told me to run the 45M, 300M, and 600M dash and of couse a 4X200M. i'm excited! tim said he's most likely gonna go, so that too.
before i go, i have one more thing to announce:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIELLE M!
|
|
| hey i'm a cashew...let's do this! |
[02 Dec 2005|02:32pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 7-up & teeth cleanin don't mix |
] |
i luv dane cook, he's amazingly funny! i've only heard like three of his jokes but i wanna hear more... like the "hey i'm a cashew" and "oh no mr.kool aid man", ok fine i've heard two, but i know i heard one more, jus can't remember wat one, something about a mexican fast food restaurant.....
english was crazy this morning, it probably had sometthing to do w/the fact that i had a 7-UP and two cups of highly sugared punch the nite before. but we were readin this edgar allan poe story, the fall of the house of usher. i got a wicked big crack off the whole usher part. so u kno how usher, the singer dances everytime in EVERY single music video,...well wat would it be like to meet him, he'd be like hey wat's poppin, i'm usher, these r my confessions, ur a hott chic and u've got me so caught up, but u can't have me so u gotta let it burn, and while he's sayin that, he's doin like the whole hat tip, slide, east side/west side spidy fingers, watevr he does when he's dancin...so danny and delila called me a psycho and ms. mccafferey and kim jus looked at me really funny. then, or b4 the usher thing, i was breakin out the christmas songs and i was singing santa claus is comin to town except this is how it went:
michael jackson is comin to town!
michael jackson is comin to town!
he watches u when ur sleepin,
he wants to rape u when ur awake,
he likes it when ur bad and good
so u better be bad for ur own sake
.....
w/ lil tiny thongs and sexual inuendos
and plenty of benedryl to keep u drugged for hours
and so on, it is really bad but seriously this is how it went.....
but then i was like, "omg, didn't the jackson five sing that?!" and that was really bad de ja vu of wat happened yesterday..
in french, the conversasion between meg, ciera and me got around to braces and then meg said, "i don't need braces, but my teeth r so gay.." then i told her, "but meg, ur teeth r so straight!" but i had meant it in like the sexuality way, then i realized, i made a funny!
and while i was tellin kyle that while i was walkin down the hall, i kept trippin over my words and he said, "trish, ur so high rite now." of course me being as slow as i am, it took me a minute to realize wat he really meant, and i defended my ego by sayin, "i am not stoned! if i was i would be walkin into that wall rite about now." so me not payin attention to anything i had jus said, walked straight into it. but i am positive that i was not stoned, and never taken a drug or drank in my whole life. once on the vball team, u can turn into a very "special" person in everythin u do, evry lil thing.
so about the 7-UP and punch, i had gotten my teeth cleaned yesterday and i was os hungury cuz, well, i can eat a cow and still be ready for a horse...so my mom dropped me off at the dentist and went to wal-mart and bought food for me....and came bac when i was done. they put flouride on ur teeth after they clean it and my mom thought they weren't going to, so she bought me a 7-UP. tgif potato skins, beef strips(they were extremely salty!), bagels, and nutty bars...still haven't told her that i got that done!
|
|
| in the nose, out the mouth, and fairy like a Russian guard...... |
[29 Nov 2005|07:50am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 how's about that mile! |
] |
the meaning of my headin is this....when u run, u breathe in the nose and out the mouth....no brainer, if u do it another way well, that's u, ur special!
the fairy part, that's one of our warmups/drills....u kick forward, so that u look like a fairy, my perspective, u look like ur doin the Russian guard dance w/o foldin ur folds up. that's wat Ciera and I figured at track tryouts yesterday.
and all the distance gurls seem to laddy-ga-ga ova the german exchange student chris, sure he's cute but they like him cuz he looks like a blonde arnold schwrezinager<howeva u spell it! b/c he's so jacked, but he's a nice kid, along w/the two other german exchange students in our hs this year.
but i'm proud of myself b/c i ran a 6:55 mile after i haven't ran or did anything for track in six months(basically since outdoor)! that's a lot better than most xc gurls, which i got the dirtest look from caitlin taylor, b/c she tells me to my face that she's so much faster and better than me, and this is from the gurl who ran a 7:27, talkin smack to a gurl who ran 6:55...i'm not gonna hear her for a long time!
so vball for Blast will start up this coming sunday, i'm excited! there r so many gurls from coventry trying out that if any will make it, i kno emily will cuz she's amazing and i luv her, i will have friends on the team! i mean pple who goes to the same school as me, who i actually kno their last name....u kno wat i mean...but all my gurls from lasalle and lincoln, and jill from woonsocket, i luv ya gurls!
|
|
| omg, it's all over so warm up our bus |
[17 Nov 2005|09:30am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
it lead me straight to you |
] |
well last nite we played East Provdence at CCRI in Lincoln. and we went to five games with them. but lost the last with a score of 16-18, and the picture of that last point lost is all over the Kent County Times, my sister sharon, diving out to pancake it but missed, therefore sending us home jus short of the finals. i was bawling my eyes out after that, all i wanted was to go to the finals for sharon's last year. and then when we got bac to coventry everyone was cryin becuz the season was over, i felt like cryin too, but i couldn't obviously becuz i had already had.
we stayed for the first game of NK/SK game and SK won. that made me pissed, i wanbted to see them lose so bad. i was hanging out with renee durin that and everyone was lookin at us funny cuz she was cheerin for SK and i was for NK, lol.
VARSITY REVUE is tonite but i'm not gonna go, i am goin on saturday. that's when sharon's best friend and exboyfriend, rich and kyle r playin with their band, i think if i remember correctly, it's autumn avenue now...it used to be safe than sorry, but like most bands, they keep changin their continuousyl. i'm jus surprised that they stayed together that long, i mean they were still together when i was in sixth grade, aka 4 years ago. melissa is gonna be in swing, marina will be singin, and mouch and john will bein on acuostic for wonderwall. i think that's all my friends, surprised that i have any, jk jk.
hey if any of you read this at all, let me kno, becuz no one leaves comments, and i feel like a pyscho homeless person jus tellin my life to pple who don't care and won't listen.
|
|
| hopeful and waiting |
[15 Nov 2005|08:55am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 and my life goes on... |
] |
so we had the best game of our lives last nite. we played lasalle in quarter finals and SWEPT them! obviously it wasn't an easy one, but we did it. now we have a semi final game at CCRI vs east providence, so pple who read this and kno should go!
more on the guy life, i luv tim. we're still on break, but i just hope it works out. i would hate to pressure him, but i don't wanna lose him.
mike had gone to jamaica all last week and he came bac yesterday. h eis tan, i mean like black. plus, he lied to me! he said that he would get cornrows, but he would have had to cut his hair to get, after he got the rest of his hair hacked off anyways.
speaking of haircuts, i got mine cut and now it's wicked short. but i kinda went crazy with scissors,(use ur imagination) and accidentally gave my self bangs. but their actually cute, cuz they're kinda emo. showing my depressed side, lol. some pple mite read this and think that i'm an emo poser, wat ever.
|
|
| hooga chucka! |
[17 Oct 2005|09:22am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 totally "drunk" |
] |
so i have ahome game today, vs. pilgrim. we swept them last time , so it probably won't be so hard, sice we're in our house this time. and then we have no school on wednesday, but an away game at south kingstown. that was not an easy game, so today's game will be like practice in preporation for that. then i have JV Divinsionals at coventry, our home gym! booyay! at the 9 and 10 tourny, we came in like third to NK and La Salle, and practically all their sophomores r on varsity...so yea, picture how that will go, lol.
|
|
| murhurr! |
[12 Oct 2005|02:06pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
la la la la................. |
] |
in case u haven't figured it out now, the titles to my entries r jus random sounds that pop into my head.
so i played basketball in gym today. zach david, sean mal-something, i forgot, mike ( the one from last year, i kno), becca who i can't stand anymore(i'll get bac to that), and moi! we totally kicked ass. well it was mostly zach, some of me and spots of mike and sean here and there. but we played bachacci(our gym teacher), james paul aka: the senior who wants to take me to dunkin donuts when i score a touchdown in fball, caitlin taylor who is the reason y i can't stand becca, some kid chad, kyle carson, and yea, that was it. i don't remember the score but i'm gald i'm not gonna play bbal for the school team anymore.
1. i'm better at track
2. coventry=drama
3. abby makes it hell
so now, i'll stick to runnin track and playin vball for school and RI Blast!
ok, the reason i can't stand becca anymore, she has totally turned from the "Hey Tricia Baby!" from last year, to not even ackwoledgin me in the hallway, at least not when caitlin's around. even then, she ain't even buddy buddy as she used to be. it's becuz of caitlin! if u don't kno her yet, i'll catch u up to spped, she's a back stabber. basically don't tell her that u like someone, and especially don't tell her who it is. she's like makayla. which is so funny cuz bac in seventh grade, they would rival over the guys they both went out with. i of course could never get one, so i didn't have to worry.
imagine: sittin in homeroom, w/pple who u can't stand for the ten minutes ur in therte every mornin. now, imagine: sittin in homeroom. w/pple who u can't stand(especially kyle, ur ex-bf from last year sittin next to u) for THREE HOURS doin PSATs yes, confusing math problems and english question that u actually have to think about before fillin some random bubble. my frineds and i were actually startin to plan to break into the buildin and steal all the answers like they did in the movie The Perfect Score. of course, i would be one of the master minds, and possibly the vice valedictorian, and they can be all the others(the pot head, bball fanatic, daddy's lil rich gurl, and the other master mind person dude). and imagine that and kyle pokin u in the side every minute.
so we have Volleyball Jamboree on Saturday! tim said that he mite go, but most likely....i'm so excited cuz he hasn't seen me play since vball camp over the summer, and i've improved so much. i have an away game tomorrow at NK, where warren goes. teehee, i remember cuz i had the biggest crush on him durin camp. but yea he was my buddy, the only other guy beside rob and mike that would talk to me. he promised me when i was leavin the last day that he would go to my game when NK played coventry.
i am gonna go and wander the halls for the next hour becuz my practice isn't gonna start until 3:30 today. senojar bush is in a meeting at the middle school, so i have nuthin to do.
i'll write bac possibly tomorrow after the game, and give the score on that and teh weehee event of the day
^that whole sentence sounded so gay liek i was gonna give u my whol life story, lol!
|
|
| himmty hum hum hoo! |
[02 Oct 2005|02:26pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
i hate this history project!!! |
] |
in my last entry, i said that i had like 4 new pple i luv....WRONG! now i'm down to one cuz i snagged him to go tomy HC w/ me and now we're goin out. i don't if it counts when u grab each other's hands when walkin across the dance floor, u kiss on ur first slow dance, or if u ask after u jus kissed him again for the millionth time, "does this mean that we're goin out?" i'm not really sure who asked who, but all i really care about is that i luv him and i don't wanna get too scared about how it will last. that's wat happens, and it's scary after u break up becuz of that. i'm not sayin that we'll stay together until we're married, i'm sayin that i wanna be w/him for more than a month!
but yea, the dance was amazin, i danced w/him the whole nite, fast and slow(we even did the whole "lean back" thing when that song came on). he came over my house for a total of like 10-15 minutes, then his dadcame to pick him up. i haven't seen him since then. i probably won't see him till thursday, if he goes to my home game.
|
|
| sry everybody, if u still read this |
[28 Sep 2005|10:09am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 study in knutton's room is fun |
] |
i don't think anybody reads this anymore, at least not mine! i remember last year, everybody had this. but now we all have myspace. if anybody, anyone at all reads this, look at my myspace, www.myspace.com/blueydgurl525 and also BluEydGurl525 is my new AIM. i kno that nikki recently(like 2 weeks ago) updated hers. so i thought i would too.
let's see, since last year, my freshman year(i am now a sophomore!)i've broken up w/kyle. it is a long drastic story about wat happened, so i'll summarize it. i went to Reno, Nevada to play in a gigantic volleyball tournament(there was a website, i think it's volleyball-festival.com, idk if it's that though) and while i was gone, britt told me that kyle was hanging out w/makayla, if u don't kno from last time who that was, she would HANG all over him even when i was standing there. so yea, i freaked out that he cheated(which he didn't) and broke up with him. i still ove him though and his locker's three down from mine, sits next to me in homeroom, and near me in geometry. so i still see him.
new loves as of lately, another kid named kyle from hendricken, friends w/josh, warren from NK who i met at the vball camp over the summer, and tim, he's another kid i met at the camp.
and O M G [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<lol...i'm>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] i don't think anybody reads this anymore, at least not mine! i remember last year, everybody had this. but now we all have myspace. if anybody, anyone at all reads this, look at my myspace, www.myspace.com/blueydgurl525 and also BluEydGurl525 is my new AIM. i kno that nikki recently(like 2 weeks ago) updated hers. so i thought i would too.
let's see, since last year, my freshman year(i am now a sophomore!)i've broken up w/kyle. it is a long drastic story about wat happened, so i'll summarize it. i went to Reno, Nevada to play in a gigantic volleyball tournament(there was a website, i think it's volleyball-festival.com, idk if it's that though) and while i was gone, britt told me that kyle was hanging out w/makayla, if u don't kno from last time who that was, she would HANG all over him even when i was standing there. so yea, i freaked out that he cheated(which he didn't) and broke up with him. i still ove him though and his locker's three down from mine, sits next to me in homeroom, and near me in geometry. so i still see him.
new loves as of lately, another kid named kyle from hendricken, friends w/josh, warren from NK who i met at the vball camp over the summer, and tim, he's another kid i met at the camp.
and O M G<lol...i'm goin to my homeocming this friday w/him. i go to coventry high and he goes to scituate, i have talked to him for like a total of an hour w/him for the past two nites, not like it's all that great, but he's such a good-looking kid. i haven't like seen since the camp, so it means a lot to me that he's goin to my HC. but so far, i've been ditched by mouch, thanx alot>jk, hendricken kyle, and i think that's it...oh and almost mike. but i see him as a friend instead of as before, so i don't wanna try and just don't care.
omg, i'm swingin varsity and jv for vball! i play all jv, and lucky if we play a sucky varsity team. i luv this so much, words can't describe it! i have a game vs. NK tonite, we'll kick butt!
g2g, to anyone who reads this! ttyl!
<3 to all,
TRICIA |
|
| kyle kyle kyle |
[01 Jun 2005|01:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
teehee! |
] |
he is such a sweetie! i luv him, grades don't matter to me but it does to my mom. we're both freshmen but he isn't really like the best student. i don't care. if he's staying bac, i'll be so pissed becuz then next year i probably won't see him. i luv him and all but i probably wouldn't stay bac so that i can be w/him next year. i think that i'll help him w/his work, be a helpful gurlfriend. his ex-gurlfriend, sarah, she was all ova him this mornin. i wasn't there becuz i wasn't in school yet but that is wat i heard. she is the one that wanted to kick my ass, it was her loss that he broke up w/her and my gain that he is goin out w/me. i don't mind that he is friends' w/other gurls and he doesn't mind that i am friends' w/other guys. but we both kno that if one of them tries somethin weird, like wat she was doin, that we would sorta like bac off them. i'm still good friends w/mike and he's my ex. i don't mind if he is w/sarah. but i don't want him to be cheating on me behind my bac. he is the guy who fuckin gave me my first kiss. it is almost like first serious boyfriend but u didn't hear that mike and neva kissed once. we were goin to but it was goin to happen the worst times. but kyle, i don't have ask if it is alrite, i'm tired of asking. it is one of those points where u r just tired of bein in control and want to sit bac and just let it all happen. that is wat happened wen he kissed me. i just let it happened, and trust me, he is a good kisser. whenever he and i r, all my friends tell me after that they saw me "making out" in the hallway. of course most of them don't have a boyfriend or they r just jealous that they don't get that from theirs. i haven't been this happy, honestly, he is the guy that i have been waitin 4. he isn't rude and would tell me wat is on his mind, the good and the bad. it isn't editted so i can hear wat i want to hear.
he went home early today, right b4 secnod period which was the period today that i had w/him. so i was all alone to talk to becca and nick and entertain myself by poking this kid matt in the back w/ a freshly sharpened pencil. a differnece from when kyle is in the class w/me and when he's not, i actually did work today and shut my mouth. hmmh.....maybe i'd be passin that class if i did that more often. oh yea, [ah durh] it is algebra 2. he is also in my world civ but i am passin that class no problem. maybe it is the pple i sit w/, not kyle him self.
do u usually realize somethin, u seem to have a differnet personality in every class depending on which of ur friends r in that class. in french, i have dizzy and becca...soo i'm always crazy. but in tech, i'm w/ bitti lea and steph and therese, so i'm kinda mellow. plus in this class[which is tech] there r pple who want to kick my ass so i'm not so wild and obnoxious. it always happens, it sometimes reflects my grade in the class, counting wat subject it is too. u kno i'm justa rabblin so if i confuse u i'm sry but get wat i mean? rite?
wat to do besides a powerpoint of my life which u can't really do anything becuz the fact that ur life is a boring sac of ompalompas? and there is bitti but we don't talk to her jk jk.so how 'bout that gurl therese, she's a cutie, but sry guys she is comin out of a relationship and jumpin into another. she has been put through quite a lot of shit with her past boyfriends, this kid betta not treat her like shit or i will personally go after him. but to go out with him even though ashley d is tryin to get a piece of him, i say push her ass out of the way take him. all she is probably gonna do to him is well, i won't say. he is probably betta off from injury w/u.
i am episcopalian, bitti wanted to kno, so i thought that i would let ch'y'all also. i can barley say it becuz of my lisp, but i kno how to type it. i haven't been to church in over a year. well, once but that was a random, had to go becuz u got into a fight w/ur mom about it the nite b4. she's already ova it so i don't think i'll have to go bac until fall. bitti says that wheneva i say my worship religion thingy that revovles around god, she thinks that i am sayin, "i pissed out an alien" bitti is one of my best friends i love her to death and she always cheers me up when i am feeling down!! i <3 u bitti [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<from [...] it's>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] he is such a sweetie! i luv him, grades don't matter to me but it does to my mom. we're both freshmen but he isn't really like the best student. i don't care. if he's staying bac, i'll be so pissed becuz then next year i probably won't see him. i luv him and all but i probably wouldn't stay bac so that i can be w/him next year. i think that i'll help him w/his work, be a helpful gurlfriend. his ex-gurlfriend, sarah, she was all ova him this mornin. i wasn't there becuz i wasn't in school yet but that is wat i heard. she is the one that wanted to kick my ass, it was her loss that he broke up w/her and my gain that he is goin out w/me. i don't mind that he is friends' w/other gurls and he doesn't mind that i am friends' w/other guys. but we both kno that if one of them tries somethin weird, like wat she was doin, that we would sorta like bac off them. i'm still good friends w/mike and he's my ex. i don't mind if he is w/sarah. but i don't want him to be cheating on me behind my bac. he is the guy who fuckin gave me my first kiss. it is almost like first serious boyfriend but u didn't hear that mike and neva kissed once. we were goin to but it was goin to happen the worst times. but kyle, i don't have ask if it is alrite, i'm tired of asking. it is one of those points where u r just tired of bein in control and want to sit bac and just let it all happen. that is wat happened wen he kissed me. i just let it happened, and trust me, he is a good kisser. whenever he and i r, all my friends tell me after that they saw me "making out" in the hallway. of course most of them don't have a boyfriend or they r just jealous that they don't get that from theirs. i haven't been this happy, honestly, he is the guy that i have been waitin 4. he isn't rude and would tell me wat is on his mind, the good and the bad. it isn't editted so i can hear wat i want to hear.
he went home early today, right b4 secnod period which was the period today that i had w/him. so i was all alone to talk to becca and nick and entertain myself by poking this kid matt in the back w/ a freshly sharpened pencil. a differnece from when kyle is in the class w/me and when he's not, i actually did work today and shut my mouth. hmmh.....maybe i'd be passin that class if i did that more often. oh yea, [ah durh] it is algebra 2. he is also in my world civ but i am passin that class no problem. maybe it is the pple i sit w/, not kyle him self.
do u usually realize somethin, u seem to have a differnet personality in every class depending on which of ur friends r in that class. in french, i have dizzy and becca...soo i'm always crazy. but in tech, i'm w/ bitti lea and steph and therese, so i'm kinda mellow. plus in this class[which is tech] there r pple who want to kick my ass so i'm not so wild and obnoxious. it always happens, it sometimes reflects my grade in the class, counting wat subject it is too. u kno i'm justa rabblin so if i confuse u i'm sry but get wat i mean? rite?
wat to do besides a powerpoint of my life which u can't really do anything becuz the fact that ur life is a boring sac of ompalompas? and there is bitti but we don't talk to her jk jk.so how 'bout that gurl therese, she's a cutie, but sry guys she is comin out of a relationship and jumpin into another. she has been put through quite a lot of shit with her past boyfriends, this kid betta not treat her like shit or i will personally go after him. but to go out with him even though ashley d is tryin to get a piece of him, i say push her ass out of the way take him. all she is probably gonna do to him is well, i won't say. he is probably betta off from injury w/u.
i am episcopalian, bitti wanted to kno, so i thought that i would let ch'y'all also. i can barley say it becuz of my lisp, but i kno how to type it. i haven't been to church in over a year. well, once but that was a random, had to go becuz u got into a fight w/ur mom about it the nite b4. she's already ova it so i don't think i'll have to go bac until fall. bitti says that wheneva i say my worship religion thingy that revovles around god, she thinks that i am sayin, "i pissed out an alien" bitti is one of my best friends i love her to death and she always cheers me up when i am feeling down!! i <3 u bitti<from bitti herself in person(take a picture, it'll last longer!)we r practiclly related relly and she's not writing this it's comin from the heart man!!>that was really from bitti not lyin! stop stealin the friggin key board! i admitt that i luv u! |
|
| (boot)see ya, mike! (door opens) hello kyle! |
[31 May 2005|08:29am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
MWAH! |
] |
He had his chance and decided to go out w/A.R.R.T.if u read this, u kno who u r. but u kno, u can quit actin like i want him bac, cuz i have kyle now. he came ova my house. he asked me out, and made out on my couch. i'll give details lata.
|
|
| Two days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[23 May 2005|11:24am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 my name is.........????? |
] |
My birthday is in two days, and then i'll be 15. then i will finally shut up about how many more days, hours and minutes there r left. u kno wat, i think i'll let u all in on how long is left!
2 days, 4 hours, 31 minutes
My cousin Britt is 2 hours and 40 minutes YOUNGER than i am. her birthday is in:>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 2days, 6 hours, 11 minutes
she lives in NH and hopefully she comes down for the party on saturday. hopefully this, it will be better baywatch babes impressions and sand cylicone boobs on the vball court. i won't care if it is rainig and thunderin and lightning. i'm still swimmin in the pool, i'll stay up late watchin the scary movies and playin spoons and truth or dare. my becca baby even made me a list of the "menu" for the party.
Food: Pizza, Chips=sour cream and onion, doritos, and potato; cookies=chocolate chip, peanut butter, and obviously sugar;brownies, chocolate and whipped cream covered strawberries, and my death by chocolate cake dessert.
Drinks: Mt. Dew(Wahoo!), Root Beer, orange, grape, Coca Cola, and Cherry Vanilla Dr. Pepper.
Guests:*if u rn't on the list sry, but these r my clostest friends from this year!!!!!* Becca Baby, Melissa(my twin), Bethany Whit(not fontaine thank god!), Bitti Lea/A.P.H., Dizzy, and ShaSha/G.K.F.
Movies: Destination 1&2, Jeepers Creepers 1&2, The Glass House, The Man in the Iron Mask, Ever After, and Without a Paddle.
i'm really confused on guys rite now. Mike said no to me about goin out and he wants to stay friends, but still cares about me. kyle, my buddy from world civ and algebra, he told me2day that if him and his gf eva broke up, that he would go out w/me. i got mad becuz him and his gf r probably gonna get married judgin on how long they have been goin out. i don't wanna be the reason if he breaks up w/her, i'll fell really bad. plus i've had w/askin the guys i like out. i'll play around and let them come to me!
mike is leavin on friday to go to FL. he gets back like 3 days lata, and he said that when he gets bac,. he'll have his own private party with me, jus me and him. i don't kno if he is gonna rethink he answer to me, becuz he told me no in a note. those of u who think that he is a sissy to say no to my face, he ain't. it's jus really hard for him talk to me in private, since A.R.R.T. is on him tryin to get him to go out w/me. but after he gave me the note, A.R.R.T. gave him the essay about how i met him up until the point where hew held my hand, i posted it on like tuesday of last week, it is the unusally long one. he mite rethink he answer, if he doesn't, then oh well, his lose!
g2g create a "website" on my life 4 tech. it ought 2 slightly boring
|
|
| Here is the story of how I met Mike....Geoff, why are bein an ass, that was over month ago! |
[17 May 2005|12:21pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 Taste the friggin rainbow! |
] |
The First Time He Held My Hand
I never knew what they called a “serious boyfriend” was like, you know the kind. Not the kind that you stand five feet away from when walking down the hall, or doesn’t even call you on the phone. The kind that you don’t have to ask to kiss you and will hold your hand every time you see them. I was what they would call inexperienced in that area of expertise. Many people who I knew were; they made me feel slower, like I didn’t fit in just yet. I had one boyfriend, but him and I, it was just a fling. We were in sixth grade so it we really didn’t like each other that much. That point in my life was what I called: “The Most Boring Ten Months.” I was single for a year and a half, and then came eighth grade where I met Mike.
Well I had already knew him before, we shared the same interest in soccer, we played on the same team only a year before that. He was best friends with my younger cousins who would remind you of the annoying, bratty little brothers. You were only off by a year, so you tried to act like the older sibling. When you were placed on the same co-ed soccer team, it was hard to get along. Mike was just like them, always annoying me, so I had the enjoyment on throwing every object in reach at him. From balls to soccer cleats, and the little weights that our coach used for goal posts at practice, he was in within range. Whoever knew that we would turn from enemies to what would seem like love?
Maybe this would require a year of separation, and then we’ll see what will happen. Turns out, he moved from West Warwick to Coventry the next year. We acknowledged each other’s presence in the hallway as “Hey, is that the girl/guy I used to play soccer with?” Then he would probably remember the many bumps and bruises I inflicted on him that made him almost scared to talk to me. We never had classes, so at least he would be able to avoid a text book. The daily visit to see my dreaded cousins came, and of course, he happened to be there. Parked in front of the TV, game controller in hands, I surprised by throwing a pillow. He never knew what was coming, so then he offered for me to join him in a battle on the game Dragon Ball-Z. I was just learning, so he thought that he had the advantage. He never knew that I was a fast learner, so I beat him in less than three games.
We never came to friendly speaking terms till the Lock-In that spring. A Lock-In is almost like a joyful imprisonment in the one place that you wouldn’t want to be over night. It lasted for twelve hours, from 7 to 7. A dance for 5 hours, jousting with giant inflatable Q-tips, boxing with enormous gloves, and a movie and plenty of popcorn and soda to hold you over until breakfast. Then our parents, in their bath robes, pajamas, and slippers would roll out of bed to come pick us up.
They had an arcade room set up in the second cafeteria, and of course, plenty of benches for those who weren’t able to survive. I lost my best friend in the mob of dancers, so when she was done, she could come and look for me. I saw Mike sitting himself in the bleachers only five minutes ago, now walking in to see if he can score a stuffed animal out of the claw machine. I watched him walk in and then laid back and closed me eyes. You know those times, right when you are about drift off to sleep. That pleasant feeling when you are starting to dream, and then you are woken up by the loaming presence of another. Usually it would be a pillow to the face, but since I was only watching him moments ago, I thought that it might be a plushy animal. Instead, he poked me in the side and said, “You’re supposed to have fun at a Lock-In, not lay around staring at the ceiling.” My eyes open to see his head floating over me.
“I’m tired; I know it’s the Lock-In, but I'm not the kind of person to stay awake for long periods of time.” I replied, my head about ready to loll off again.
“Well, why did you come? You’re supposed to be having fun you know.” he contradicted sarcastically. We argued like that for another good five minutes, then my long lost best friend had finally found me.
“Tricia, I lost you, and I got worried you were-oh, hello! Tricia, who’s this?” She tried to act surprised. Introductions were made, and he quickly caught on to the message that we giving each other through my glares and her suspecting winks.
“May I speak to you/beat you senseless outside, Sharon? I’ll be right back.” Then grabbing her by the back of the sweatshirt dragged her outside. “Please don’t do anything stupid, I think I like and don’t want to destroy anything.”
“Oh sorry. I’ll be a good little girl and leave you alone.” We walked back, and Sharon with her bad acting skills said, “Sorry about that, I was being a bad girl.” Then, it was the kind of moment that you really wanted to slam your palm into your forehead. The night continued into morning, I spent it with him. We would talk and walk, sometimes I took him out on the jousting post, and he would return the favor. His mom came and he had lost his sweatshirt, which gave me the chance to spend more time with him. It was those crucial between “Hi, I used to play soccer with you.” to “Bye, see you in school, or at your cousin’s house.” It was then it hit me, he turned from the boy that annoyed me to wow, I would really like to be with him.
He left, after giving up on his sweatshirt and then Monday came around. None of my friends ever thought that it would be possible for a boy to come hang out in our little group in the morning. From Kenyell to me acting spastic, we scared away almost everybody. Then he came over and tapped me on the shoulder. “Hey, I take it you didn’t go to your cousin’s? That’s ok; I had a fun time with you at the Lock-In with you.” We talked and Kenyell tried desperately to scare him away. He stuck around though; he claimed that it was really no different from West Warwick. That’s what I really needed, someone who could put up with my friends because I was really no different. Wednesday came around, I was ready to do it, ready to ask him that question that could make my world come crashing down, or make me go crazy even more than I already was. Crazy in love, that’s what I called it, not like the song. For real, but could I be bold enough to approach him with that question?
I may be crazy, but when it comes to courage and guys, you’d be better off with a different question. Sharon is much more experienced in that area, she could do it for me. I was taking all of my friend’s advice that week, but when he came around the corner, my knees would buckle. I was at my locker just before last period, “Sharon, be a doll and can you please go ask out Mike for me?” She ran away; ready to be the angel that gives me hope, or the brayer of bad news. I waited desperately at my locker, what was two minutes, seemed like an eternity. She came back, sprinting practically. “Well?! What did he say?!”
“Well, first I said, ‘Hey Mike. Do you wanna go out with Trish?’ and he said… ‘Yes.’” She was so close to yelling it that I wasn’t sure if I fell into my locker because of my off-balanced excitement, or because she almost threw herself at me. I couldn’t believe it, I had a boyfriend! After almost two years, and five failures, I finally succeeded. I managed to make it through last period without standing up in class and dancing. I bell rang, school was over. He met me at my locker; we walked and talked, just like we had that Friday before. But, oh! How I wanted for his fingers to be laced in mine, his lips to meet mine, but I never once felt those passions become reality.
I spoke to him about it, he said that he has done those things before; it made me feels slow again. He wrote a note to me the next day. In the note, he told that I can move at my pace and he’d be ready. That gave me some confidence that I wouldn’t disappoint him. Of course it also included his number and addiction to Mountain Dew Live Wire. That really wouldn’t surprise because of all the energy he always had, but the next day, at least one of my passions became reality.
He would come into my lunchroom, and sit with me at lunch, of course with my friends. I had my hand closest to him under the table; he sat with both hands under. Slightly tired, anyone could have guessed that the energy he was usually brimming with was finally wearing off. Katie, one of my friends who wasn’t crazy like me, but always had a comment for something; sat on the other side of the table. “You guys are going out, why don’t you ever like hold hands or something?” she questioned sarcastically. I gave her a shut-up-now-and-you’ll-save-yourself-a-beating. But it was right after that moment that he must have got the message why I was only eating my lunch with my left hand, because it was then that he grabbed my hand under the table.
“Was that what it felt like? Who ever knew that it felt so great? Everyone closest to me, including him could tell what had just happened my surprising yelp. On my checklist of passions, all I had left now was my first kiss. I had “getting a boyfriend” and “holding hands” checked off. Just one more to go and I’ll be all set. A rush of warm flowed from my hand clasped in his, from my fingertips that would brush his. It was the closest thing to heaven at that point.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
thexyz123's journal